Here's something I've not had before. Friends. And I mean real honest to goodness 'we're practically family' friends. Until very recently, when I reached out to a group of people who shared a common interest with me: gaming. When I sent out that message telling them I was running a game, I expected, knew even, that it wouldn't pan out. No one would show up or they would but it wouldn't really be a big thing.
I confess I'm a little paranoid when it comes to friendships. So when my game night friends turned into my every day friends, it frightened me. To the point where I really was afraid of trusting any of them. Sometimes I relapse into that. I blame anxiety and a lifetime of bullying...
The best part is that my friends know this and love me anyway. They constantly reassure me and let me know how much they care...in between casual teasing...(that's how I know it's real. If they were nice all the time, I would be very suspicious...)
Anyway I'm loving my friends now more than ever. My truck died and they have been carting me around a lot lately, especially when I had this big job interview. I'm so grateful for them.
Friends may not always be forever. You have to work on friendships. I've found some worth working for and the best part is, it's mutual.
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