Drifting

I find it hard to pray sometimes. A lot of times actually. I trust God, I do. But often I find my prayers to be less humble and more whiny...there's only so many ways to say 'my life stinks' without coming across as ungrateful. Perhaps I am a bit ungrateful. I've had a lot of opportunity and time and again I've blown it. I've had great experiences and pretty cool adventures. But it's difficult to be grateful in the moments when you feel like nothing is going your way. O haven't been to church in a while and it's even harder when I don't get that encouragement from other Christians around me.


The fact is that I need to pray more and I struggle with prayer. I can spout my opinions all day but bringing my troubles to God is...well at least it feels whiny. I believe in spiritual warfare and I believe Satan uses it against Christians. I know that he doesn't want me to pray. He wants me to feel cut off from God. I desperately need to keep this in mind when I avoid praying.


Anyway, it's just something that's been bugging me.


On another note I want to do better about watching my language. Most of the time when I'm around my friends I tend to relax my internal filter and I use some words unnecessarily. Maybe I'll make a swear jar...or something to that effect...